Happy Easter Sunday

HAPPY EASTER SUNDAY !
Rejoice cuz it's the day Jesus came back to life.

Am going to 入会, which means officially join into Methodist church today.
Well, I put an effort on making myself lookin' better cuz
I need to stand on the stage in front of soooooooooooo many people. Hundreds !
And of cuz I'm not going to wear what I usually wear to church lol.
A simple tshirt and jeans ? *BIG BIG X* No way !

Instead, I wore a white dress, which I usually hate to.
No reasons but I'm used to wearing pants.

Selca

You know right, everyone will get nervous before going up to stage.
That's a normal reaction I guess.
When finally it's my turn to go up, my heart was beating so fast. I'm so nervous.
Although I've been singing choir in front of these audiences I still have that nervous-ness.
After pastor gave us blessings and prayed for us, we have to turn to the people sitting down there and let them see our faces. You know right. AWKWARD.  

Well, I received a gift and a certificate certifying that I'm officially a member of Methodist church.
Pretty little wrapped gift with musical notes and instruments. Lovely !

Guess what's inside ?!

I knew I've seen this book somewhere else and I ever wanted to buy it but I forgot why I didn't.

It seems like God gave me this little cute book as a gift. Love it so much !

Ain't it cute? Its named - If God used Sticky Notes

"Keep these in your heart! Love, God"

Aww, I can't wait to read this book. 

The drawings inside are so cute and well it seems like it's for little kids,

but NAH ! I dont care ! 

The book is mine now ! MUAHAHAHHAHAH *evil laugh*

Stop the drama lol. 

Well, I'm really feeling THANKFUL today, Easter Sunday and a great gift from God. 

Lastly, another photo of myself. 

Tried to show my pretty rose earrings but failed LOL .

Hid my nose cuz the lighting was making my noise look so weird .

That's all for today. Happy Easter !

致、朋友

不晓得你是否会看到这封给你写的信，但是
直觉告诉我，你会心血来潮打开博客来看看。
这一次我没有犹豫，只是想单纯地相信自己的直觉一次。
如果没有，也没关系。

此刻心情无比复杂
心里的天使告诉我说，要支持、鼓励你去体验生活、追求梦想
但同时
心里的恶魔告诉我，反对你去，因为自己的自私、不舍。
就算是短短的3个月，一边安慰自己，只是3个月，很快就过的。
另一边担心，这3个月，我该怎么过。

这3个月，
少了个我最在乎的朋友在身边、我感到空虚。
少了个我最信赖的朋友在身边、我突然觉得我没有人好信任，好依赖。
少了个我最不想失去的朋友在身边、我好像失去了很重要的东西。
少了个每次叫我特地早起陪她吃早餐的朋友在身边、我的早餐谁来陪我吃。
少了个会为了我陪我去青团，反而被人酸的朋友在身边、我没有了陪伴我的你。
少了个我能毫不质疑告诉自己心事的朋友在身边、我真正的心事能和谁说。
少了个把我当家人，对我发脾气的朋友在身边、我无法感觉到自己在朋友心里多重要。

如果你离去了，我还真会不知所措。我该怎么办？

不擅长表达这份心中的不舍，于是用冷漠来伪装自己。
心里有很多话很多话想对你说

你去了那里或许会受苦，所以担心你承受不了。因为当时你是多么讨厌国民服务的。
你去了那里或许会独自一个人，所以担心你会不会被人欺负。因为你说你害怕一个人。
你去了那里或许会认识新朋友，所以担心你会不会忘记我这个朋友。只因为你曾经说过你对朋友会喜新厌旧，当时我害怕了起来。

这段时间，请好好照顾自己。
累了，就休息休息，但不要偷懒。
在面对一些生活上未知的事，让你胆怯的东西，要勇敢。
记得每天擦防晒油，我不想下次见到你时你皮肤黑得像黑炭那样。
不要吃太多了，你说要去减肥的。
多喝水，别生病了。
有空时，送来短短的一封简讯，报下平安，让大家知道你过得好不好。

我在你生活中只是扮演一个朋友的角色，我无权干涉你的抉择。
但，既然这是你的决定，作为朋友，我能做的，只有支持你。

我或许不是，
让你最能感到温暖的朋友、
能给你百分百安全感的朋友、
你最信赖的朋友、
最可靠的朋友、
最体贴的朋友、
最了解你的朋友、
最疼爱你的朋友、
最顾虑到你感受的朋友、
最处处为你着想的朋友、
第一个在你伤心时借你肩膀靠，安慰你的朋友、
在你需要帮助时第一个帮助你的朋友、
在你开心时第一个想分享这份喜悦的朋友、


但是，
我可以保证，
我会是最真心对待、最珍惜你的朋友。:')

我们大家都会等着你回来的。

Harder and harder !

Just received my academic transcript
and I was soooooooo upset and dissappointed with my results.
I cant even manage to get a CGPA of 3.5/4
I only managed to get 3.15.
Felt so sorry to my parents, they spent so much money to let me further my studies.
I know they have high expectations on me.

I really have to stop myself being lazy and study harder.

Motivation please.

TRUE. I need to study hard to achieve excellent results.

In this world, knowledge is power. Without knowledge, you cant survive within the society.

Study hard to gain more knowledge !!!

(I dont wanna be evil)

Hard work  pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now.

Succeed is more important than any one thing on the world.

1st year Degree

Time flies.
It's already 4th of March !

The time was like a rocket 'piuuu' or should I say it was as fast as lightning lol.

I started my first year degree since 25th of Feb.
Was struggling again whether to continue business courses or not cuz my friends told me that I should've chosen Design.
Well, I did have the talent to draw but that doesnt mean I'm creative enough. That's what bothering me. 
But soon once again I realized that I have to take business.
It'll be hard to get jobs and achieve something unless I'm really a super talented person in design.
First semester of degree I'll be taking Quantitative Analysis (I dropped it just few days ago but I'll continue it during the Winter term, which means no semester break for me. Wuwu TT), Microeconomics, Accounting for Managers and Business Information System.

The first week of school opening was...okok lah.
Nothing to know more about, just assignments and stuffs we're going to learn.
Just hope that there's not too many assignments.. urghhh :(
Final exam consists of 60% over the 100%, it'll be tons of stresses. GOSH
Plus, I was expecting some handsome guys walking around the school. Unfortunately, what I saw all the way at school was... which made me think that: 古晋的帅哥全都死到哪里去了？！

Okay, skip the school things.

Dad was so worried about paying the school fees for the rest of my degree semesters.
He want me to study hard to get scholarships and free loans. Ok, that did motivate me.
Still, if I get those scholarships I can buy what I want. <-- obviously the main purpose of studying hard lol.

God didnt close any doors for me. He actually opened more for me.

I got both PTPTN loan and Yayasan.
Ptptn loan wont be fully supplying the fees so Yayasan will top up for the rest.
I was praying for the loans to be approved so that dad wont be that worried anymore.

God listens.

So then, no more worries.

Can you see how awesome is He ?




TRUE.


My Christian piano teacher was so good to me that she asked me if I would like to assist her in teaching theories and practical piano.
She said, leaning piano is a lifetime skill, you earn through those skills.
Yeah, that proves when those teachers teaching some other students in her house were all her students a.k.a my teachers.
She's not that old what. LOL

She offers them high pay. I mean, HIGH.
Where can you find a part time job with such a high pay that exceeds 2k ?!

Thank God I met this wonderful teacher.
Although she's strict sometimes, that stresses me out lol but she just wants her students to be good.



I'll repay her with my good results during piano exam. MUST ! 

I feel so blessed with everything that God gave me.