Im lost

Everyone has their own dreams since they're young.

When that dream grows from a little small pea-like seed

to a plumule.

That's when you realized and you want to make that dream come true.

I have one...

but I hesitated about it 

whether to challenge and take one step towards...

due to many reasons I've given to persuade myself..

I'm not creative enough...

I lack of inspiration...

My future career is gonna be tough if my design sucks...

So

I decided to take an alternative way

after I finish my business course, 

I'll take design. 

Is this life? Or... it is because I've been defeated by the reality

Smashing my dreams into pieces...

Tellin' me that it's impossible while 

the other side of me still adhere to that little bit of hope to fulfill my dreams..

Lord, please lead me, guide me to the right way.

I'm lost..