Holidays

Idk why I keep writing my blog these days.
It just feels like I'm writing my own 'digital diary', recording what happens everyday in my life, even special moments, sad moments and stressful moments..

Today, I had my piano exam. No doubt, I'm still learning piano.
Still in Grade 7, while others had already graduated.
I started learning piano quite late, about 12 years old ?
So, ended up now I'm still learning.
Next time if you want your child to learn how to play piano, better start it early.

Guess what?
I was so nervous again before going into the examination room. Keep telling myself to calm down and leave everything to God.

It was because during last time's piano examination, many students failed.
That got my piano teacher nervous cuz she seldom have students fail.
It was stressful. I kept thinking that what if I failed? I have to pay that money AGAIN just to let the examiner to listen what I play for only about 20-30 minutes. It wasn't cheap okay.
深深感受到那种 “台上一分钟，台下十年功” 的心情
Damn.

I tried my best to play, yet my technical skills sucks like xxxx. I got almost everything wrong. Even my aural... Gosh I feel like smacking myself in the face.
Seriously disappointed in myself. Idk why I just can't get rid of the nervous-ness.
*Being negative*
Sorry, but I am trying to being positive.

I guess that's what I can do now.

I should be writing about holidays.
Urgh :(
Yeah, today is the first day of my holiday. My stress-free holiday has just began.
I had no idea how to spend my holiday yet.
But I did list down some stuffs I'd planned for.

To-do's during the holidays

1) Read lots of books (Yes, I bought a lot and I hope I can finish it before school reopens)
2) Watch movies
3) Take a day trip
4) Exercise everyday (Wow, can I?)
5) Draw some art
6) Hangouts
7) Experience something new (I hope)
8) Shopping (If there's any big sales)
9) Try my best to make my holidays as meaningful as possible

Stop being negativeeeeeeeeeee
*I still need some time to convince myself*

Okay, if that's the case, I'll play hard, really hard. I don't like to worry, and I guess everyone don't.

I can't just sit here and worry about my final exam and piano exam results.
So no life.
Last of all...

PARTY TIME ! LET'S MAKE SOME NOIZE YO